Searching for a job is intense and frustrating, and it can make a person feel less than. It’s difficult to weed through the posts and companies, and I’m sure a potential employee is difficult to weed through also. Today, I made the decision to make it easier for one who many consider me.
I will not delete my blog posts. There are unflattering words or ideas in my posts, and at times I seem a little flaky, but they’re sincere. I know the legendary Dr. Filas from Westfield State, my advisor and writing professor, would ceremoniously cringe if he read my blog as he was always concerned with my brand.
He would probably say, “Teresa, are you sure you want to post this for the world to see?” (I can actually hear it.)
Many of the job postings are searching for a “dynamic individual.” Vocabulary.com states that “someone with a dynamic personality is probably funny, loud, and excitable.”
I can be a dynamic individual at times, but not continuously. I was not a dynamic individual when I woke up with a rare headache this morning, nor was I one when I drove 25 hours to end up in the same place I started. Is it a fluid trait, or static? High-energy is a wonderful attribute for a potential employee, I agree, but too much giggling and jumping and I may jiggle. (I’m only on day two of Weight Watchers.)
Another thing about the hunt, is I don’t want to be a ghostwriter. If you’ve been reading my posts, you know my issues with accountability and pats-on-the-back. I need them. There are many positions available for ghostwriters and one is even seeking “Academic Ghostrwriters.” I’m curious if the same company has a post for editors. Why am I such a snob? Then, my attention became diverted, so I sent an email through the application:
This position is not something that would fit me, and I’m confident I would not fit you, but I wish for your attention to one simple matter. The absence of a direct email address to your company lends me no other option than to contact you here.
You have a typo in the title of your ghostwriting job posting, and I fear it may hinder your ability to acquire the most soulful and suitable human for this position.
Pardon my obsession with grammar. Enjoy the day and the best of luck to you in your search.
My Very Best,
(I couldn’t let it go.)
An extra space or misspelled word finger-flicks me to different levels of being a dynamic individual, but it can also toy with my insecurity. I will see a job posting with a fancy word, so I’ll research one I don’t know, like “aggregation” and find a meaning then revisit my understanding of myself and wonder why I don’t know what it means in the job context. I am a reader and a writer but feel as though my basic mind’s dictionary is subpar to what employers are searching for. I then morph from a dynamic individual to a melancholy one which makes me want to eat chocolate but can’t because I’m on day two of WW.
And, of course I don’t want to work for a company I don’t believe in and am terrified of becoming beholden to a contractual writing mill, so I research each of them I may be interested in then an hour passes and I’m more concerned with the state of the Arctic Ocean than my job search. (Oh, I wish that one wasn’t a volunteer position.)
At this point, today is not the day I will find a job, but I do have hope for tomorrow because I’m feeling like a dynamic individual at this moment. I just can’t guarantee I’ll be so vibrant after sunrise.