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Support. Day 458.

Social media, although we loathe it at times, is truly vital for businesses, especially new ones.

Many of my Facebook friends have started new businesses! It’s a sign of the times, and their true leap into the abyss of this scary business world is cool to watch, but we’re all doing it, and we’re not doing it alone.

I love to see the support that people are offering each other. The shares, likes, and kind words of encouragement that people publicly declare for other small business owners, even the competition, warms my heart. I hope it goes on forever.

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A Wish or a Bucket? Day 457.

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Bucket lists are fun because they’re unrealistic at times, leaving us with the gift of true intention with no pressure of actually having to do the work. A trip to Iceland is on my bucket list, for example, but I am not expected to purchase tickets and plan my chilly, raw venture. Also, adding alpacas to my beautifully wild and lively family is on my bucket list, but I have not started building the barn, and nobody is calling me out on it.

I have an ever-evolving rusty bucket list that is not on cheap white paper in leaky blue ink, nor does it take up multiple bytes in an electronic document. Bucket lists are possible, though, so you have to remain within some parameters. You can’t say, for example, I want to take a time machine to 1955 or walk dogs with Billie Holiday. Either way, it’s fun to play the game, but not as much fun as it is to declare your items on a wish list.

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Blue Lights. Day 454.

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When we recall Christmas memories we tend to think about what and whom we miss, robbing ourselves of the opportunity to close our eyes and absorb a good memory. There are many people I miss from my paternal grandparents’ duplex in Easthampton, MA, but for now, I close my eyes and I am a child whose room is clean because Santa is on his way.

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Guest Writer. Day 451.

Baylee has been toying with the idea of becoming a sports writer one day. (I promise I had nothing to do with this.) For his English assignment, he was to write a column piece, so he decided to write about the Celtics. I know nothing about the numbers and stats, so please offer him some kind words if you wish.

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Ursus Americanus. Day 450.

Bear. Round, black bear.
Your coat is deep, heavy.
It ripples when you run.
Thick, liquid waves.

Maybe while you sleep in your den,
my friend,
black bear.
May I come inside to nap?
May I call you friend?

Will you wrap your protective arm around me?
Shield me from January, 
black bear?
Warm me until the sun rises?

Auburn rays peek over the pines and into your den,
black bear,
and they kiss your silky sleepy face.
Rainbow colors from the sun,
lavender luster, an oil slick on black water.

While you dream, I hide my face in your coat, 
black bear.
All of my face,
after I wash it with Ivory soap
and dry it with a crunchy sun-dried towel.

My fresh right cheek,
nestled into your chest, 
black bear.
You smell like winter’s air and peeling birch bark.
I inhale you, breathe in your clean, wild fur.

Your baby’s waking,
black bear.
It is almost time.
but I linger still,
ready myself,
dawdle and postpone my leave.

You begin to stir so I have to go,
back to the cold, human Earth.
I leave the simplicity of you.
The protection of you,
my friend, 
my black bear.



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Because it Can Happen. Day 448.

My cat, Gary, isn’t feeling well and has been in and out of the vet’s office this week. Of course, we fear the worst, but in our family, we have reason to assume the worst about each trial we face.

Although we are worriers by nature and genetics, we’ve also been dealt the “worst case scenario” so we know the possibilities of life.

We’ve tried all the tricks and some do work, but the fact is, we will always worry. It is debilitating, tiring, and it threatens our forward ever, but we do it together, and that helps.

It always amazes me how much the past affects the ways we perceive and deal with emotions and fear. There is no moving on. There just isn’t.

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ISO Christmas Spirit. Day 447.

Maybe it’s the weather, or the flying time, or the lack of purchased gifts, or the fact that the decorations are still in the shed, but I’m still waiting, anticipating, being patient for the arrival of the Christmas spirit. My Christmas spirit. I flex my heart and squeeze my eyes shut but it stays away. Hopefully it will find me soon.

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Thanksgiving. Day 445.

Hopefully your Thanksgiving was lovely and peaceful, and you were warmly surrounded by people and creatures who contribute to your contentment. Ours was lovely, and we were surrounded by people and creatures who contribute to our contentment, but not necessarily peaceful, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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The Warren Snack. Day 443.

Happy Thanksgiving. An oldie of mine:

His fluorescent orange hat was menacing against the warm yellows and browns that autumn offered the eye as he hunted for his Thanksgiving feast. Rules never mattered to Warren, and he just loved baby turkey meat. His shotgun rested heavily on his fat-cushioned shoulder as he waited for a chance to shoot it. The tall man walked carefully and tried not to create a cacophony of cracking with the crispy twigs, Mother Nature’s warning. Off to Warren’s side, Tom sang a ballad to his ladies, and produced a feathered rainbow of tans and browns, grabbing Warren’s attention. Using only the balls of his feet, he turned his boots like the Black Swan. They made a little crunch on the tiny pebbles as he progressed towards the flock. His yellowed eyes saw them in the sunny field, dust bathing in the sand and familiarity. He maneuvered his lazy body their way, catching drool on the corner of his ashy lips. He must have stepped on a dry stick that blew his cover because the bony birds sped to the woods and over the shallow brook. They mimicked mannequins and stayed the color of the forest, then spread amongst the downed trees and dancing orange tape. Warren jumped over the brook and his size fourteen boot caught on a willow root, disrupting its drink. He landed hard on his right foot and knew instantly it was broken. He heard his gun crack as it fell from his reach, and watched the filtered water carry it close to its sand. Instantly, the feathered figurines began making their way towards him, smirking and slowly tilting their heads like tiny velociraptors. Back and forth. Back and forth. They were accompanied by friends who brought friends. Their lemon-sized heads swayed to the left. Then to the right, in perfect syncopation with The Blues on a cloudy Monday. The downy babies jumped on him first as he shooed them away with his meaty hand. They plucked at his orange vest with their sharp beaks, removing the down. The wild poultry snickered, and more friends came along. A female came from behind and chomped on his ear, rolling her beady eyes and shaking her head until half of it was in her mouth. She tilted back and quaked until it slid down to nourish her, then reapplied her red lipstick. Another Tom showed up with his girlfriend and the Ocean Spray cranberry sauce. They drank white zinfandel and choked down green bean casserole with extra dry onions while they continued to nibble on him. They made their way through his too-tight LL Bean vest and portly white belly, seeking out his intestines to make a nice sage gravy.

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At Least I Can Still Have Tacos. Day 439.

I was looking for a recipe for marshmallows yesterday, and was surprised they contain gelatin. I don’t eat gelatin because it contains animal parts, and the vegan marshmallows are about five bucks a bag. It made me noodle around online to see what else I was eating that I, per my personal reasons, don’t.

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Stutz. Day 436.

Jonah Hill attempts to turn the tables on his therapist, Phil Stutz, a sweet and funny therapist in a new Netflix documentary called Stutz. It is dark, light, and intriguingly informative. I will use a couple tools I learned by watching it for life, even though the movie was less than two hours.*

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Looking Back. Day 433.

The other day was a busy one around here and I didn’t have much time or free mind space to write something, so I searched my past blog posts for a good one to share.

When I repost something, even though I wrote it, I read it again to be sure it’s perfect. (It’s debilitating at times.) Comparing the past posts to my current writing, I noticed some great improvement in my writing, and saw some words I used or formatting that I simply didn’t like.

I suppose writing every day is like exercising. It’s a cool thing to do this 543-day writing for Roger, but it’s also cool that I am learning because of it, practicing and growing.

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No Present Clarity. Day 432.

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I’m writing an important article for someone, which I will share at a later date. It’s consuming my thoughts and creativity, so new material is not coming to me. For now, in an attempt to clear my mind to think of something to write about, I am listening to music. What I am mentally capable of now is sharing a few songs that are new to me or have been hiding for some time. They’ve been on repeat for about a week. Hopefully this will be a helpful share. (Be sure to find the edited version that works for you. Some may not fit your ears.):

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My First Client! Day 421.

I had my first client for Maescribes! I wrote a property description for a house that is for sale.

It was and still is surreal to send someone an invoice for something I did, for a business I created, for a dream I never thought I would fulfill, yet here I am, doing it like Nike.

All the support I am still receiving is granting me some extra confidence, and I am grateful. For now, I need a moment. Just a short one, though, because I have work to do.

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420. Day 420.

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Why do we fight against legalizing marijuana so much? Is it simply a political bargaining tool to keep in their navy blue suit pockets, maybe to entice voters, to use as a pawn to get something else? Do people really still believe it should not be legal? I mean, do people actually, in their hearts, believe it? What do they think will change with a vote to legalize it? People won’t start smoking weed because it becomes legal, and the benefits of it are numerous.

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Asking For a Friend. Day 413.

Do you ever wish there was one person who you could tell everything to? One who wouldn’t send you away? One who listened without judging? One who wouldn’t worry too much about your venting?

Roger was that person to me. For me. He didn’t share my thoughts with others. He knew when I was saying things I didn’t mean just to release some hot steam. He was safe.

It was a once-in-a-lifetime gift to me, and although I appreciate that I had it, I sure do miss it. I’m a little puffier these days, filled with thoughts and even dreams I just can’t spill. One day I will get to share with him again, and although I don’t want that day to come anytime soon, when it does, I will be weightless enough to fly.

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Base: A 2020 COVID Repost. Day 412.

On March 8th, I woke up in the middle of the night as I usually do and noticed the time was 1:53 AM. I decided to stay awake (like I had a choice in that matter) and see what it looks like when the time changes for Daylight Savings. I watched it go to 1:55 then closed my eyes. When I opened them again, it was 1:59 so I waited. I focused on not closing my eyes again. Next thing I knew, I saw 3:00. The hour was completely gone and with no celebration. It mirrored my life.

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Hard to Feed Them. Day 410.

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It is almost impossible to feed all of my boys one meal. We all eat so differently! Although it can be a pain, I am grateful and proud that they have chosen their diets on their own. Like I said before, if they don’t like it, I don’t make them eat it. Taste buds are made for a reason.

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Chapter One. Day 409.

She raised her unmanicured brows. Maybe it would finally help her open her eyes. She lifted her weary and warm left hand to take off her air mask. Her tank was empty anyway, but the alarms on it would not shut up. High and low bell sounds rattled and screamed into her ears, slowly passing by her charred, numb lobes, the same ones that wore her mother’s diamonds at her cousin’s wedding last year, the same ones that felt hot then warm then hot again after they were pierced by her mother’s alcohol-soaked sewing needle when she was little.

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